Pick a word that begins with the first letter of your first name: Night

Have you ever been in handcuffs? Yes, a toy handcuff when I was young.

Have you ever caught anything on fire? No

Are you bipolar? Who knows

How long is your hair when it’s wet? Up to my chest

What was the last thing you took a bite of? Bread

What are you wearing on your feet? Gladiator Sandals

How many times do you talk on the phone a day on average?10 times

2. Do you usually have weird dreams? No

Do you like your bed? Yes, I love to sleep.

Do you log on to MySpace every day? No

Is your profile private? Why/why not?  Yes

Do you drink pop? Yes

What are you listening to? None

Have you ever been to NYC? Not yet

What are you thinking about right now? Going home

What color is your keyboard? White

Have you ever been on an airplane? Yes

Whats your stand on hunting? Don't like it

Marriage in your future? At the age of 32

Are you wearing socks? Right now, no

Do you like your life? Yes

Do you have trust issues? Yes

Do you believe in love at first sight? Sometimes

In the past 72 hours have you been under the influence? No

How has this past week been for you? Painful, I got in a minnor accident. My backbone is aching for a week as well as my right wrist

Who was the last person you texted? I already forgot

First person under ‘J’ on your cell phone? Jean

Do you hate that person? Hell NO! She's my boss

Any fun plans for today? Sleep early

Who are you disappointed in right now? A couple of persons

Have you ever broken someone’s heart? I don't know

Would you ever date a friend’s ex? No, I do not like my friends' trash

Are you the type that would rather stay at other peoples houses or have them at yours? Both

Do tattoos and piercings excite you? If it suits the handsome badboy

Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again? No, my lips are still virgin but nobody believes in me XD

Do you know anyone whose name starts with a Z? No

Is there a reason for your MySpace song? No

I’ll bet you’re missing someone right now? Yes

When was your last encounter with the police? Last 2 weeks ago

Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing? No

I only read the following questions from previous blogs and give my answers.

If you were caught cheating, would you fess up? yes

The last time you felt honestly broken? i can't remember when

Are you craving something? yes

If you could have one thing right now what would it be? a bar of chocolate

Would you rather have ten kids, or none? none of the choices given

What do you hear right now? ringtone

Is your bed against more than one of your walls? yes

What’s on your mind right now? nothing

Are you there for your friends? yes

Last person to see you cry? i don't know

What do you do when you get nervous? become red as tomato

Be honest, do you like people in general? no

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids? 33

Does anyone completely understand you? i don't think so

Do you have a reason to smile right now? yes

Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you? nah, it will be the end of the world if that happens

Would you be happier if life had a rewind button? who knows

Do you tell your mum or dad everything? not everything

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes? yes

Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone? i don't know

This time last year, can you remember who you liked? yes

Do you think more about the past, present, or future? future

How many hours of sleep do you get a night? 9

Are you easy to get along with? no

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with? how did ya know?

What was the last drink that you put in your mouth? water

What size bed do you have? single bed

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in? before

Do you like the rain? no

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? who knows

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do? yes

Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither? i don't know

Who were you last in the car with, besides family? work collegue

What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who? the bounty hunter (last year XD), with my collegues

Have you ever kissed someone who had a boyfriend/ girlfriend? no

Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you? yes

Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party? no

Do you regret a past relationship? no

Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party? a crazy party

Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over? maybe

Have you made a joke about somebody that made them cry? no

Do you care too much about your appearance? sometimes

Are you a jealous person? to the nth power

Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? a tank top and a sporty bouse with hood

Do you miss anyone? yes

Last person who made you cry? i don't know

Does your ex piss you off? i don't have any

What are you doing tomorrow? sleeping? or maybe at the gym

Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/ girlfriend every week? no

Is there anyone you want to come see you? yes

Have you ever been cheated on? i am the cheater

Ever given your all to someone who walked away? no

Do you like cotton candy? definitely

Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with? okaa-san

Are you planning to get knocked up or knock someone up by age 17? knocked someone up

Do you have siblings? who knows

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone? many years ago

How has the past week been for you? boring

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? yes

What’s on your mind right now? my shoulder is aching

What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping

What is your current mood? reserve

Who was the first person you talked to today? none

Will this week be a good one? i hope so

Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy? i can't remeber

Who were you with last night? alone

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? no

Next time you will kiss someone? who knows

Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy? it should always be the BOY!

Do you have any plans for the weekend? go to the gym

It is another boring day for me when I go to my desk. Not so long, my supervisor brought up about an interesting news. Maybe you already know what is the latest trending news on the internet, yes its about Steven Jobs. My supervisor remembers the speech Jobs made at Stanford University on a commencement exercise way back year 2005. She print a copy of the speech and give it to me. At first I was not in the mood of reading it, but since I am not doing anything I started to read it.

"Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick."  that line from the infamous speech strikes me. Its very true in my life. There are things that are like bricks that falls from the sky and mercilessly knock my head. There are things that hurts me so much that I wanted to give up. But why is it that I am still holding on?  I came across with this statement  as  I continue to read the passage of the speech, "I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I love what I did."  Indeed its very true.

Lately I have a feeling that rarely happens to me. I feel a bit irritated with the things on my surroundings. It has been awhile since I start my job and now I am on the verge of giving it up. I am annoyed that it seems that I can't get the appoval of the institution's head on a very simple matter. Aside from that, I feel I am not doing anything on my work now. I am at the office making new policies, organizing meetings and lecturing to students but I feel those are just minor things to do.

Reflecting on my actions, I still can't resolve my disatisfaction on the things happening to me. There are things that makes  me happy but there are also things that makes me displeased. I am a passive type of person who won't bother to concern myself on others affair and sometimes including those things that concerns me. I am the kind who will accept a "Yes" or "No" answer for a certain request without bothering to ask why. Vague, very vague. Maybe that's the reason why am I annoyed of everything since I can't get a clear answer.

My good sleep was disturbed by a loud sound of wailing and screams coming from my neighborhood which is only 2 meter away. It has been an irritating yet heart pounding feeling for me as I try to gasp on what is happening on my surroundings. "You've killed him!" somebody yelled and a sound of hitting someone suddenly follows. I try to ignore the tension around my surroundings and get up from bed. I say a little prayer of thank you and read my Bible. It may be bizarre but that is how I treat my neighborhood whom I really don't know. Seriously, I do not know their faces or even their names.

After 30 minutes the police came to investigate the crime. I have heard that one who died committed suicide because of some marital problem.  "How foolish..." I muttered to myself and walk passed by the street. Why are there people who take their own life while some fight for their life? Why does people waste their life on problems and depression? Why does they have to endure living for many years and at the end they will take it away? Why is it that people do not value what they have? Its such a waste.

It has been a stormy weekend and I spend my time sleeping, day dreaming and reading light novels. Its something that I like about raining. All I have to do is to hybernate like a polar bear inside my room. Lazy as it may sound, but its the way I enjoy my free time especially now that my laptop is broken. Actually, the same routine happens every weekends. I will get up from bed at around 10:00am and do my lazy activities for the day. I am not the kind of person who will spend the whole day outside with their friends. I prefer to be alone.

As I lay on my bed day dreaming, I started thinking again of my life's medium term plan. I used to say to myself that I will meet the man of my dream by the age of 24, make him my boyfriend at 26 (whether he like it or not XD) and get married by 28 years old. I consider getting my masters degree by 23 years old, serve the government for 2 years and take PhD afterwards for another two years. If you sum it up, my medium term plan will end when I am 28 years old. Suddenly, my day dreaming was stopped. Is the time that I set  attainable? There are many things that I still like to do. I got so many aspirations in life that time is too short. That time before I close my eyes, I have decided something again. I will revise everything from the start in order to reach my aspirations.

Just this morning my officemate brought her cute little toddler in our office. Everybody adores the little girl as she clings to her mother with an uneasy feeling to have people around smiling and giving her fancy stuffs. As I look at the little girl I try to remember those good days where I am only like that; dressed like a little lady, having pony tails, a stuffed animal bag pack and all the bling bling accesories. Honestly, I am not fond of kids especially babies. Its like in the children's eyes I could see a world full of lies.

As we grow older, our fantasy world is fading. Life is not like what we are thinking. When we are young, older people will treat us in a very gentle manner. They will answer us in the most creative way. But as time passed by, inch by inch reality is being introduced to us. The old people that we trust with all our hearts never take our childish words seriously. The time you realize it is you are already grown up. When you are a child you wish to be old so that you can do things that you like. But when you are old, there's a set of bounderies where you can not cross. Yet, I won't desire to stay being a child. The world is my playground not the children's park at the neighborhood.

Strong wind, heavy rain and coldness is already over. Its the time I remeber something I heard last Sunday during the church service. When does a rainbow appear on the sky? Is it before a storm? During a storm? Or after the storm? With uncertainity, I mentally answered after the storm. My guess is right, rainbow definitely appears after the storm. After all the things are devastated, it is a symbol that there is always hope. It is not new to me that rainbow is a covenant made by God to Noah and humankind that he will never destroy the whole Earth with water. But, have you think of the rainbow in your life?

In life there are many storms that we always pass through. Some are really strong while some doesn't cause too much trouble. We might get scared of the thunders, lightnings and strong winds but we must carry on. No matter how hard the situation is, always remember that there is no permanent storm. It will always come to pass. The sun will shine brightly with a rainbow arc across the clear sky.