Red... a symbol for bravery and courage... a sinful color of bloodlust and rage... a frightening color of bloody death and genocide... A stinging color of madness and pain...

Blue... a symbol hope and grace... a beatiful color of endless imprisonment... a cold and cruel color which traps your soul... seeping and crawling into you in a torturous way slowly eating the life you have...

Green... a symbol peace and freedom... a beastly color poison and lust... a tempting shred of deathly wishes that entgles you... slow and cruel death approches you as you sink deeper into it's fangs...

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Shimmering darkness... that swallows the world... blanketing it in an endless frame... of blinding anxiety and depression... seeking the hearts of those who suffers... and slowly driving them to insanity... the hymns of those who cries... in the horrors of darkness... becomes a reververating tune... unstopable as night grows deeper... creeping and slowly cracking the will of those who seems to be strong... like an unstoppable surge of pverflowing liquids... it seeps into the tiniest cracks of your soul... slowly... slowly... breaking it apart... leaving you nothing but despare... and slowly drives you towards insanity... and towards your end...

Worshiping the darkness of the night... I slowly sink myself in the madness of my sins... breaking my soul apart... but still I keep on restraining it... I keep on focusing despite the endless pain... The deep pressure crushing me... as I look around me... Beyond the horizon... beyond the endless pile of corpses... beyond frozen sea of blood... Keeping myself sane... While being bound to my insanity... the battle has just begun... but everything seems to be worthless now... yet I will still have to fight... and pile up more... and more dead corpses around me... nothing can stop me... nothing can move me... nothing else can ever hold me... for my madness.. for my insanity... shall never end...
 

The wisdom of chaos... and the pleads of darkness... have swept me away... in an endless labirynth where you may not know night from day... where you won't know what's up nor down... a prison of cold curses... endlessly wandering the unending space that traps anything that comes before it... Filled with emptiness yet so endless... Forcing my way out was almost impossible... I struggled... struggled to point where I almost gave up...  but still I must brake out... I must return... so I struggled more... and keep struggling... even if everythng in me is feeling numb... even if everything that surrounds me seems to hold latch onto me not letting go... I keep on breaking it... until I finaly break free... from that endless prison... where even great wanderers gave up... Finally... I have returned... To once again spread my words... to once again blanket this world in darkness... to once again break the covenants of sins... and to once again take over the world....

The madness of worlds... frozen in the emptiness of space... swallowed by light... in an eternal battle for sanity and sin... in a point where everything colides.... in a place where everything ends... where time stops... where visions shatter... a point where there is everything... yet there is nothing... an endless labyrinth... where thoughts colide... thoughts wander... yet cannot be seen or known... where everyone feels alone.... yet everyone is just near it... The eternal prison of endless souls... The curse of eternal punishment... you may be alive... you may be death... yet you wont know... once you've crossed... this boundery of an unknown eternal and endless realm...

Calculate... calcutate... calculate... figuring out truth and false.... shifting reality as if it was a dream... or shifting dreams to create your own reality... breaking the common thoughts of your mind... wander through the endless flow of time... break all the locks... shatter all the walls... seek the wideness of space.... as you alone embark on your journey... in seeking truth... in seeking reality... in seeking everything you want to know... don't end yet... don't end now... keep on moving... even as you slowly wither away... dive into the depths of the abyss... run through the blinding light... fear?... there is no such thing as fear... to someone who laugh at the face of demise.... find your answers... find them... even if everything were to switch back... from the moment you began...

Envy the chaos of the world... As you wander the endless nights... where everything that surrounds you... swirl in a maelstrom of madness... beckoning to each other... ignoring each other... fighting each other... chasing visions... breaking dreams... worshiping gods, angels, demons, anything worth worshiping... escaping reality... retracing steps... trying to finds ways to change everything... or just do nothing... watching over this rotting world... as it passes it's never ending cycles of creation and destruction... retracing every moment back from the start...

Bindiong myself in these endless chain... I've sworn to never again see the light... Letting myself indulge in these endless darkness... as the chains slowly constricts me tighter and tighter... endlessly... the pain... the fear... they are all slowly vanishing... to the point where I'm all numb... numb enough not to even feel my own life.... slowly fading... and fading... restricted to move...endlessly bonded... slowly being squeezed... till the last of my breath... fades away...

Run... to the depths of the darkness... to the ends of the world... where no time is known... where nothing exists...  Where only the stillness of space can be felt... an empty void.... imprison yourself in this place.... where no one will find you... no one will seek you... where no one can chase you... in this silently still world... filled with nothingness... numbness... endlessness...  timeless... in this lonely still prison... trapp yourself and erase your verry existance... will you be lonely?... will you stay long here?... will you still return?...

Glittering... Shining... everything is sparkling... like a room filled with different jewels... like a view filled with kaleidoscopes... trapping every scenery... locking up every vision... shattering every image.... not knowing where is up or down.... no knowing right from left... a place full of colors... yet so distorted... breaking my sight... forcing to see through... I strugled to find my way through... this endless labyrinth... this bortherless maze... where time and space doesn't seem to affect... everywhere feels like a mirror... everything feels like a passage... no darkness... no light... no feelings... just pure numbness and distortions... I can't even feel my own self... am I still existing?... am still alive?... how long?... how long must I be here?... how long will I be staying here?... In this unknown paradise... In this unidentified hell... will I be endlessly wandering?... till my soul fades away?...

Mourning in the seemingly unending rain... Surrounded by white budding dandelions... My voices echoes along in the sound of the mild dripping raindrops... I look up at the sky... asking... why!... why!... Is this real?... Is this acceptable?... I shouted out loud... loud enough for my voice to reach the heavens... strong enough to shake the depts of hell...I shiver in the coldness alone... drenched... as I kneel... and In front of me... was a tomb... I kept thinking and thinking... as I slowly read the letters that are engraved... shattered... broke down torn... still I kept reading... endlessly reading... painfully reading trying to accept... trying not to regret... forcing myself to take it all in... I closed my eyes... and finaly calmed down.... I opened it again as the rain suddenly stopped... wiped the engraved name... put on a smile... and said... I guess this is really it... I thought to myself... and left... slowly vanishing into the distance... for the name that was written there... was none other than myself...

Run away... Go... Do not turn back... Flee... yes don't even think of anything... just keep going away... hide... don't ever come back... Leave behind everything... go... go on... but... will you be satisfied with this?... will you just leave behind everything?... Are you really going to abandon everything?... Will you not regrert?... Will you not fall into hatred?... Will you not be chased by the memories of everything you have done?... bad or good... is it alright for you to forget everythng?... will you be ready to change and start from scratch again?... will you really be able to escape?...

Walking the path of darkness... Embodies fear himself... Under the gloom of the scarlet moon... Its figure is cloaked with shadows... Is is carrying a weapon... For I can hear sounds grinding on the ground as it moves... Frozen in the silence... My movements stopped... Time seems to have frozen... As I stared upon it's face... From which you can see nothing... Other it's eyez that glows in the haze... Upon that foggy night... Where the air is filled with the scent of blood... It walks through the darkness... A silhouette of the bloodstained killer... I was just curious to know... So I try to search for it... but then instead of me founding it.... It was I who was found... Now in this very moment... in this very time... what will happen to me... as I face the bearer of this blood stained scarlet eyes...

The madness that seeks to kill... The hunger for blood of those who are weak... Cruelty to those that tries to rebel upon your wisdom... For you who only seek yourself shall soon perish... Not from someone else's wrath... not from some divine rituals... Not from some sacred writings... But from yourself and yourself alone... You who only knows what you wish.... who's selfishly rejecting everything you see... Who only listens and listens to thy self alone... You may feel like you have wings... yet you still land on the same ground.... Trying to be greater than those who is around you.... Trying take the title of god... Yes... go ahead... leap higher and higher... For the moment those fake wings of yours tore.... you shall feel the depth of your fall...

Wandering the madness of the night... Under the rays of a scarlet moon... My thirsts for blood is driving me insane... for it is the night of the forbidden... it is the time for the hunters to be drenched in their madness... A night of crimson moolight... driving all thoise who walk the night insane... but for me I must contain it... I must not let it bind me... the desire and thirst... for I have sworn upon that one... that I shall not let my demons take me... and again raise my self to be king of the damned... for I was saved by that kindness... or rather I wanted to be saved... to be freed from these chains... to escape from this prison... even If I alone am the only one who can walk the nightless skies... even if I betray my whole race... I am myself... and this is what I have chosen... Even if they will hunt me down from my betrayal... I will never let any soul scar my sacred name... For I shall always vear the title of the strongest... Even if I wont be a hunter again...

Drenching my eyes in this bloodstained rai.... I walk this sorrowful wasteland... looking for traces of life... looking for anything to use... wandering alone burning these sight into my brain... the sight of devastation... for this time the world nearly ended... scvattered all over the place were ruins and bones of those that have died... I don't know how things ended up this way... for the moment I have awaken... everything else was in the verge of their ends... so I wander around... wanting to know how bad it had been... trying to absorb all the emotions that has once filled this place... trying to recover memories of the past from when everything was still blooming with life... will life be brought back to this dying world again?...

Offer me your life... Offer me your will... Offer me your devotion... for I  am God... Trade me your wisdom... trade me your life... trade me your soul... for I am a Demon...Is it power that you seek?... to save?... to curse?... to create?... to destroy?... to maintain?... to change?... what is that you shall offer?... what is it that you are willing to exchange?... kill for your desire... be ignorant for your obsessions... merciless... painless.. filled with greed... stain your hands in the blood of those you are willing to offer... for every gift has a curse... and every curse has a gift... stained in the darkness... pure?... no matter how pure it is it will still be stained... for any offerings you give... for any wish you want to fulfil... a price shall always be at stake...

Chained... stopped... prevented... cannot move... cannot think... entering a breakdown.... my is not of my own... who is it that will decide for me?... screaming in silence.... waiting... waiting... just waiting.... like a marionet without threads.... waiting for someone to make me dance... sitting in a corner... looking... watching as people pass by... wilol someone pick me up and put strings on me again?.... or will I just be thrown away again... like a useless junk... scrapped... played and thrown away... no meaning.... all I wish is for someone to thread me again... for I wish solely to dance on those stages.... will someone thread me?... will anyone even notice me?.... among the millions who have passed by... someone... anyone...

Glowing eyes that scavenges the night.... breaking through the depts of darkness.... orbs of lights that scatters everywhere... never knowing what mights created them.... flames that dances in the midnight haze... believed to be spirits of the dead that cannot transcend... living lights that mixes with moonlight... glowing vividly  at the depts of the night... glowing with different emotions... glowing with unknown thoughts... what are really they for?... are they willing to light up the night?... or are they just lights lost in the darkness... trying to know what they are made for... trying to know what truths lies within them.... will they even know what they really are?... are they made of joy?... or are they drenched with sorrows?... only one thing is clear... they rule as the glowing symbols of midnight... whatever they are....

Screams of frightful terror... evies the voieces of the night... howling against the moonlight... screeching in the pillars of fright.... gnawing voices as if crushing something hards... clashing metals breaking the silence... sounds that seem so frightening... yet they fill the hazy dark night... with chants that scares the living... is it because they are dead?... is it because those who live thinks they should not exist?.... is it because they are with darkness that they are feard?... is because people just don't want to understand why those sounds are even existing... are the perpetrators behind them real?... or are they just an illusion created by fear?... fear of not knowing... fear of not accepting... fear of not existing... are they just mere illusions created by fear?....

what... why... how... who... where?... what am I for.... why do I exists... how did I even exist... who created?... where was I suppose to be... questions... I am filled with questions... I know I am human... I know my parents given birth to me... but still... questions keeps flowing out of my mind... what is my true purpose... what is it that I should live for.... what is it that I really seek.... everything is a question... everything... why must I eat why must I sleep... why must I even ask....  yes... endlessly... endlessly... more and more... it just doesn't end... how do I make it end?... how do I make it stop?... how?... how?... how?...

Screaming in terror... as those who seek the light... bound by chains of darkness... slowly being consumed by the night... forbidden to live... but not ever dying... forbidden to cry... yet bloody tears flow in their eyes... those who can't leave the darkness... those who are wanderers of the night... those whose hands are stained with blood... and those who are sinfully enlightened... threading to destroy... pleading to conquer... pulling every soul in the depts of the abbyss... where they are stained and ruined... merciless... vicious... frightening... they who know nothing more but to kill... they who will kill without even a trace of regret... Is there still salvation?... is there still hope?... for they seek no salvation nor hope... what will they end up?... what is it that they should end up to... when the candles of their lives... burns out...

Scarlet Moonlight... Blankets everything in crimson... and everything else is died in scarlet... Everything is enraged in an endless bloodlust... as the moon showers them with it's scarlet rays... a sinful beauty of wandering beasts out for a kill... with claws and fangs drenched in blood... they wander the moonlit plains... not afraid to kill... not afraid to die... no allies... everything is a foe... fighting... fighting... and fighting more... bathing themeselves in blood and wounds... such sinister beauty... such dreadful demise... severed body parts scatter all over the place... it is no war... it is no battle... it is a ritual.... a ritual of knowing.... knowing who will be the top leader... who will rise before everything else... in thise paradise of corpses... in this scenery of carnage... who will rise to the top?...

Creeds of those who worship... sinks in the depts of their thoughts... will someone save me from my Illness... which no cure cannot be found... despairing in hopelessness... will there still be light?... will still live long... before this pain takes out my life... wandering the darkness... looking for a cure... find me my medicine... will I find it if my will is pure?... looking at the moonlit night... Ignoring the pain... I traveled alone... Even if people would call me insane... I must free myself... I must heal myself... only I can do it... only I can withstand it... for this is my body... for this is my game... I will purge all the impurities... Even if it brings me insane... I shall not die from sickness... for sickness alone cannot kill me... I shall die my way... and never in a sickly frame...

Walking alone... slowy... the world... disappears in front of me... trapping me in an endless dream... with nothingness as it's core... trying to wake up... but can't seem to wake up... trying to sleep but can't seem to close my eyes... just standing still... in this endless nothingness... empty... yes so empty you won't even know if your alive or your dead... numb of everything... I can't even feel my own body... I wonder if I actually died?.. or am I dying?... will I still wake up?... all of my thought's pour out... even in this empty place where silence rules... I screamed... and screamed and screamed out all I've got... will there be anyone who will save me?... will there be anyone who is going to wake me up?... will I still wake up?... from this endless void...

An end... brings a new begining... a begining... brings a new end... an endless cycle... birth.. death... rebirth... we all follow this... unnoticingly... endlessly... trapped in it's cycle... not even knowing we are trapped... in this endless flow of life and death... everything will end... everything starts... we don't even know where it started now... but still we continue it... this cycle... this phaze... this seemingly endless flow... whatever happens through this cycle... no matter how great or how weak it affects the flow... it will still end... and begin again... not stopping... no matter how you bend it... no matter how you change it... it will still bring the end... and the end will again create a begining... and that beging will again come to an end... how long will it be?... how long?... Will I be able to break from it?...

Moonlight shimers... as the endless night approaches... silence soon fall upon everything... no words coming out... no sound can anymore be heard... a deafening silence... in this night of endless darkness... those who lurks these night's... those who hunt's this times... silently making their movements.... not making a sound on their harsh motions... slowly and silently... they stalk anyone lost int this moonlit gaze... and those who is stalked... shall never escape their fate... that is... to end... and will be the end... no one will know... no one will see... but will just be engulfed in the darkness... silently... silently... no evidence will even be seen... no traces... no.. nothing... as if nothing has happened... they are those who hunt... hunt without mercy... without fear... silently... surely... securely... will you be their hunter?... or will you be their prey?...

Prophecies of the end... Predictions of Destruction... Worshiping... Wishing... No... Hoping to see the end... even if they are frightened...Wishing for a new begining?... or just obsesed with the fact that everything will end... those who seek truth from chaos... Those who seek the madness of words... those who seeks the insanity of creation... they shall all gathyer... to plunge this world in hatred and despair... breaking every piece of hope... shattering every bits of courage... and end everything in one insane blow... where no one can ever recover... no one... sinners... saints... good... evil... everything... everything won't be spared...

Closing the boundaries of light and darkness... I stand still in sight of an endless time... light and darkness... pushing each other out... painting the skies in a crimson have... the sun bleeds its glows... covering the moon in a blanket of blody rays... painting it into a scarlet orb... soon the light finally retires from it's struggles... dragging the sun down along with it... as the seemingly endless darkness... slowly engulfs everything in it's pressence... and rises a top the darkness... is the orb that was staind with scarlet rays... such scenery is quite a bliss... a blood stained moonlight... surrounded by absolute darkness... burn in your eyes... for this will be the sight of the end...

Fast... so fast... not stoping... not ending... moving almost like the speed of light... where are you headed?... where will you be heading?... I don't know... I just don't want to stop... keep going... keep moving... moving through obstacles... no one to follow... no one following... moving unstopably in this road of dreams... should I take someone with me?... will I ever reach that place... a place where even light couldn't reach... I held out my hand... who wan't to join me?... in a drive towards an endless dream... toward's a road of no end... towards the path of the unknown... maybe there will be a place there where even light cannot reach...

Mad creeds that tainted this chaos... all gather under the glittering moonlight of the red moon... with eyes filed with bloodlust and insanity... they gather... those who conquer the night... those who lurks in the depts of darkness... they all gather in this sinister place... hungry souls that hunts for prey... hungry hearts screaming for pleasure... blood stained... greedy... insane... everything that surrounds you is madness... Soon it will begin... yes a competition... an endless fight to the top... not holding back... not stoping... until one rises to the top... creating a mountain of corpses around it... merciless... thoughtless... just filled with blood lust and hunger for power... yes... a very image of destruction... now let the festival of deathly chains begin....

A tainted memory... an unreachable dream... strive... break free... fly with those broken wings... reach out... no... ignore everything else... just find your own way in this endless see of unknown thoughts... no being persuaded... no being forced... reach it with your very own hands... even if it gets stained with blood... even if it sacrifices a lot... just to fulfil that sickening will... without noticing... without even trying to look around you... shroud yourself in your own lonely chase... indulge yourself in the madness... of trying to gain what you can never have... find it... look for it... your eternal wish... your endless dream... your most wanting thoughts... and ignore everything else.... don't look... don't turn... just look at what you are looking for... and know that... there are things in this world than can never be yours....

Night falls... and this stained land is now blanketed with darkness... silence starts to sttle in in this labyrinth of bloodshed and agony... no more weils,,, no more screams... just a deafening night of silences... the dark night covers the visions of this insanity that was spreading out in the lands... as if giving a temporary relief to those who have cowered in fear upon it's sight... The darkness of the night... where no light was seen.... that even the stars are hid in this untamed darkness... I can't see... I can't feel... I can't hear anything I close my eyes... and ask... am I still alive?... why is it like this?...

A paradigm of terror... an endless symbol of fear... a prospect of chaos... a mechanism of countless sins... slaughtering the world... plunges everything in madness... the y are the tools... used to plague this world in sick insanity... stained with blood.... surrounded by corpses... they are the verry image of a painfuly unrestrained death... sending shivering pulses upon their sight.... they are weapons... no... they are tools... yes... they are tools that can also be weapons... yes exactly... but they alone are not weapons... they were made to pirce... cut... and splatter lives... yet they are innocent objects... their innocence even stains the desires of their weilders more... driving them in bloodlust and slaughter... pinning them in an endless hunger foor blood and death... releasing all of their darkest desires... yes they are innocent objects... who were only stained by their weilders desires... they are... a sinners hand... a madmans partner... a property of evil desires... they the stained mechanisms of chaos...

feast before thee... for it is our time... the fall of light... the world sinks in the depts of darkness... everything will be shown... the darkness of ones heart... the fear that swallows souls... the sorrows the rips minds... guilt... envy... agony... all mix up and enrage in the swirling tides of chaos... freed from their chains of restraint... it plunges the world into a state of endless death and devastation... is this the coming of the end?... ruins... injured ones... corpses scatter all over... not knowing who not knowing what.... poor... rich... no one is saved... nobody can be saved.. statuses won't even matter for it embodies fear itself.... this world... this time... will now end....

Time will freeze upon it's coming... will sink this world in endless silence... and slowly... slowly engulf everyones hearts in fear.... darkness... chaos... and death crawls from the depts of their slumber.... soon... they will blanket this world in devastation and carnage.... there will be nothing else but fear and sorrow... this world... this time... is coming to its end.... slowly... slowly... the sighns... are slowly showing itself...

The time has began... and it will start to move... a frame of thoughts... that will freaze the very foundations of reality itself.... was restrained for eternity... will now be freed from it's prison... the worlds peaceful reign... hsall soon fall in the hands of chaos.... fear it... envy it.... for it is the greatest of them all... those that fears nothing... which even gods... fear...

I am everything... I am the king of kings... I am the watcher of worlds... drenched in chaos and darkness... I who have rulled over this world countless of times... not even having a reason why?... not even having a single thought as to how it will end?... I just rulled over it... not even concerning on what is happening around me... for I have given them freedom... am I just ecaping from my duties?... or will they be the ones to seize what I have given them someday?... I who have chosen to just watch upon everything... why do they still opose me... why do they still retaliate.... for I have already given them everything.... why do they still seek for more?... why?... how will I end this endless reign of envy... for no matter what I give them they still ask for more... and more... and more... even if I decide not to be involved... even if I decided not to interfere... why do they still seek me out?... why?...

Will you accept it... my wishes... my dreams... my thoughts... my words... my darkness... my desires... my envies... my guilt... my agony... my fear... embrace it and never let it go... just hold onto it until everything ends... with my hands stained in blood... my scent filled with the scent of counless lives Ive slaughtered... are you still willing to accept it?... the truth that even tries to destroy this world... the sad wisdom that was brought upon me.... an endless course of struggles... an endless path of sufferings... are you willing to take them all with you?... and not bear any grudge against it?... will you be my salvation?... will end this bloody curse that was passed down upon me...accept me for what I have done... and for what I will be doing more and more... not stopping... not stopping... will you take them all?...

For whos sake are those tears.... for what things have set them free... from where did they started flowing?... For how did they end up?... your tears... your sadness... your madness.... guilt.... hate.... sorrow.... curse them... curse them... those who have sinned... those have betrayed... those who have done nothing but destroy... curse them all.... cry tears of blood as you vengefully end up in a bloodlust... not feeling anything... not knowing anything.... to you everything is stilll... in that single moment.... let it alll out... the anger the fear.... the endless despair... let them alll flow out of you as you sink in that moment.... the moment those tears fall... the moment everything breaks... the moment nothingsness consumes you... you are not the one who will judged... you are not the one who will suffer.... just let it all out.... empty yourself.... and lock it up so no one may ever make you feel that way again...

Night... Cold... Alone.... Hiding on the corners of my room.... trapped... no... feeling fear as if somneone is watching me.... someone is waiting outside my door... someone is trying to take me away... when will tommorow come?... I'm scared... I'm afraid... who is it that is watching me... go away.... go away.... go away.... please leave me alone.... I don't want to know what will happen if I move... if I step out.... something... something bad might happen.... not knowing what may happen I fear.... fear that I may lost something... that I may be hurt..... that I may die... so I enclose myself... trying not to come out..... hiding in the corner of my mind.... where no one will seek me... no one will find me.... alone.... yes no one will be watching me.,... no one will be testing me... no one will judge me... no one will hurt me.... but is this ok?... am really fine being alone?...

wandering... never ending.... never withering... never stoping... just endlessly wandering.... not knowing where to go.... not knowing what to do... trapped in your own labyrinth.... not knowing how to get out.... not wanting to get out.... just endlessly wandering.... not even trying to know what surrounds you.... as if walls are all around surrounding you... wherever you go.... whatever you do.... you just can't decide.... afraid to decide.... fearing things that may or may not happen.... fearing words that are neither true nor false.... finding ways to escape?... no... just trying more and more to get lost.... not accepting the world as it is.... not wanting to know.... just spending your time in your own maze... alone.... silent.... dark.... cold.... is it ok to stay this way?.... is ok to just wander?... in the labyrinth of the lost....

Temptations leading to sins.... frozen words engulfed in darkness... grudges that is almost endless... strong emotions of hate and terror... all forms a single fault.... all desires into one point.... gree.... agony.... guilt... hatred.... shredding souls as it slowly engulfs it.... brings life into an endless cycle of chaos... not sparing anyone... not saving anything.... a pure weave of total annhialation.... breaking even the walls of fate.... forcing itself upon those who are blessed.... punishing more those who are cursed.... yes an endless power.... an endless seal.... and endless curse... an endless blessing of the end.... do you have what it takes to take everything it has to show you?... everything that is sunk into the depts of darkness.... everything that is brought by chaos.... will take them all with you?....

Dark... unchangable... deep... unreachble... an abyssmal labyrinth... a cold and dark prison... wandering... wandering in the darkness... frozen in a single point... everything else disappears from sight.... then changes again...  but for those who posses it... remains the same... as if it were stripped of from the hands of time... like they were walking in a different space... the darkness will engulf them... no they are already a part of darkness... they who have sank their souls into the depths of the abbyss... cold... hungry... alone... not knowing anything... or perhaps already knows everything... trapped?... or have been trapped... in an endless labyrinth where all light have colided... those who comes out of this place... who seeks false reality... who wanders the world alone... who is one with the darkness... their mark... their fate... their truce... is one with the awaiting of the end... their timeless bodies... are marked with darkness... darkness that never fades... an eternal curse... an infinity of sins... a life filled with death... a fate drenched in darkness... they are those who do not die... they are those who can't die... they are those who have already died... they are endless...

Images... point by point... flowing endlessly into my mind... their meaning... their value... their form... all unknown... endlessly... flowing... like an unstoping film... will they count as memories?... or like pages of a book.. can they be erased?... or are they permanently there?... the images of anything and everything... flashes before my eyes... not stoping... not ending... as if it was a flippeped book with endless pages... endlessly... endlessly... moving... changing... what is their meaning?... what will they be?... visions?... prophecies?... or just an imaginative frame of thoughts... unreal?... real?... which is it?... so confusing... so time consuming... just thinking about it makes my head go mad.... breaking into my brain.... a puzzle?... a masterpiece?... I don't know... for these images keeps on flowing... not stopping... not ending... but maybe it may end soon... as my breath and vision fades away....

Vision... slowly fades... ending everything in one moment... forbiden from reality... a timeless display... an eternity of unending thoughts... flowing endlessly as if it skipped the lines of time itself... past... present... future... coliding in one moment... mixing at one point... unreal... unclear... unknown... hiding in the darkness... blanketed by blinding lights... seek that place... a place where you belong... an eternity frozen in a single moment... an endless vision trapped in one place... a place where everything colides... that place... is the within me... or is not even existing... but there is that place... where you will not know anything... but you will also know everything... whatever you believed in... whatever you hated trusted... everything... everything is there... in the endless chains of dreams...

This world... This time... everything that surrounds you... are you sure they really exist?... can you see how they change?... Have you ever felt like something's not right... in this world... in your world... in your time and space?... what is the truth that you see?... what are the lies you've fabricated?... what are the Illusions you've made to make yourself feel like you exist?... do you really exist?...  what is the reality that you follow?... are you  a loner surrounded by nothingness... or a prisoner of merry melodious lies to make yourself feel better?... do you want to escape the truth?... or do you feel like what you know is the truth?... have you ever asked yourself?... is everything around me true?... what if they are just lies?... what if they don't really exist?... what if everything I see is just a product of my imagination?... have you ever think that way?... or are you just someone who goes with everything... not thingking... not knowing... just trying to live the way everything around you flows?... not caring about anything at all... what is it that you are thinking... I know there will always be no same thoughts... I know each one thinks differently... and everyone have their own perspective... so what is it that you think about... questions regarding this world....

My world... My time... will be coming to an end... words... visions... memories... piling up... like an endless falling smow... trapped inside my head... endlessly falling... blanketed by an endless array of colors... red... green... blue... yellow... mixing... coliding... overlaping... slowly swalowing each other... resulting in black... yes... black... creating a prison... and endless vacuum that eats everything... anything will be sucked in... pilled up... compressed... squashed... mixed... slowly... slowly disappearing into the darkness... light?... there is no light... for light itself is trapped within it... all kinds of light... vain... pure... harsh... gentle... free... locked up on this abominal form... accepting everything... engulfing anything... whatever... wherever... whenever... not stoping... not ending... won't ever be satified... and would just keep on eating everything away... unttil everything is back to nothingness... yes... it won't stop... not unless everything... is engulfed... is absorbed... is pulled into the darkness... without escape... without returning... just sinking into its depts... crushed beyond its limits... the beaty of this darkness... pulls my verry soul... will I regret being sucked iin?... or?...  will I still be able to come out?....

Cruel... yet kind... a sinner... a hunter... a fallen... damned... evil... those who are from darkness... those who feed on everything... the poor things that wanders the darkness... shunned... hyated... ignored... forsaken... only those that they see to be good are the good ones... those who do not kill... those who live in peace... those who do not bring death... why?... why are they bellitling those whom have live to feed on the living... those4 who are considered to be ugly beasts...  why have they even been created... to be killed... to be feared... why are they made to hunt... to strike down... to kill for food... why do they only accept those that thought to be good.... and why is it that they only save those good things they consider....those beings did''nt ask... they couldn't ask... because they were born that way... and because they also want to live... such cruelty pushed upon them... bearing the sins of a killer.... without even knowing why... what else can they do... if they don't have a choise?.... can they even change?... and why would they change just to suit the likes of those around them?.... for what purpose....

The Sky.... Painted in bright crimson.... The horizon is screaming the glimming lights of the the day.... as the sun slowly sinks into eh far away plains.... soon the moon slowly appears... covered in a scarlet haze....  it glows in violent red as if it have been washed with blood... everything around me is slowly swallowed in a red mist.... my vision.... slowly fading... being drenched in these painfull visions... of a garden filled with thorns.... I walk barefooted upon it... ignoring pain.... ignoring the horror... ignoring everything that approaches my gaze.... everything is drenched.... in a blanket of scarlet fluid.... above them spears are erected.... droplets fall slowly.... I can hear it.... every drop that hits the ground... in the midst of the screaming silence... after endlessly walking.... my legs starts to shiver.... my balance is breaking.... my vision slowly fading.... then the silence was brocken.... what is this?... rain?.... its raining.... now fallen to the ground.... I lifted my hands as if to reach the sky.... drencheing my whole body in the rain.... I forced my visions to clear.... scanning my surroundings... oh so this is hwere I was....A damned place.... what above me that seemed to look like trees.... were corpses hanged in display... seeing myself drenched... I noticed.... so I am one them too... so will this be my end too?.... I asked.... as my vision... slowly.... fades....

Dark... Cold.... On a glistening snowy night.... running.... trying to escape... what is that was chasing me?.... stop... no!... don't come near me!!!.... running without a stop..... trembling in fear.... fear of what I can't see... chasing me in the snowy path.... as the silence of the night pierces through.... I can't hear it... I can't see it..... But I know its there.... that's why I run... keep on running non stop.... not thinking.... not knowing where to go.... just running as far as I can.... will it catch up to me?.... what will happen?.... no... I must not get caught.... I won't stop..... I won''t give up that easily.... not to something I don't know... But I must escape... these piercing glare.... so cold that its even colder than the snow that slowly covers my body.... I must not stop... If I stop will it be the end?.... what must I do?.... All I can think of now is runnn... keep running... until the last of my breath fades.... until this body cannot move anymore.... I will run....

midnight aproaches.... slowly... patiently waiting for the hands of the clock to hit.... I stared at the soon to be time that seems so long to come.... paitiently.... watching as the slow clicks of its arms moves.... not stopping.... not ending... keeps on moving... the beauty of its movements.... unending as it may seem.... yes  ticks.... the sound of its gears can be heard.... upon the empty room that traps it.... continously..... clicking..... as if it is endless.... as if it is so isolated..... one more minute.... 1 more second.... soon.... a loud ring fills the room.... is it that time already?.... I approach it.... whose movements have stopped.... the clicking was replaced.... by an endless ring of bells.... reverberating upon the whole room.... astonished by it I watch.... until everything stops... until everything end... until a new click can be heard again....

A plague.... An end...  A gruesome outcome.... the world... ravaged... crushed... pilaged.... cries are heard everywhere.... mourning for the dead.... weeping for those in pain.... anguished by those who  are nearing death.... frightened.... shivering.... hungers for hope.... a world thathas lost everything.... ruins scattered all over.... drenched in blood.... bodies scatter everywhere....  brocken... sliced... crushed... torn apart... those who suffer.... blames... all blames everyone... blames thyself... blames the world.... whatt is that they wished for?... why did it end this way?... a world that  has once prospered.... is now lying in ruin... what has triggered this to happen?... willthey still bbe willing to live?... but I'm  sure.... tommorow will still live on.... never stopped.... until the last of its time... fades.....

Winds whispering.... In the darkness of the night... Trees fluttering.... Silence... Steps... can be heard... on top of a lake.... where moonlight shines.... ripples starts forming.... as if rocks are thrown in.... slowly... silently.... soon winds blow forth.... weaving the branches of trees.... wolves starts howling.... and the noices starts everywhere.... at the center of the lake.... a figure starts forming.... floating... no.... taking steps.... on top of the lake it self.... it's movements so graceful.... so tempting and mild.... is it filled with sorrow?.... or is filled with delight?.... It dances alone.... with the moon as its audience.... upon a windy spring night.... where no one would notice.... soon the figure glows.... as if drenched with moonlight.... It's violent steps... starts to make its way.... showing no emotion it keeps on dancing.... and vanishes in thin air... as midnight strikes its calling...

Power.... Fame... Adversity... Strenght.... Corruption... Slavery.... Curse.... A mix of everything... A n autonomic structure unknown to man... A worship that was never found... treasures that can destroy and creat anything and everything.... books of infinite knowledge and wisdom.... Abilities which lead to greatness... we seek it.... we seek to control... to move it on our own way... that's why we are human... humans that seek control... seek power.... not stoping.... doing everything to change.... even if everything is destroyed it won't stop.... what is even its purpose.... why?.... if you have everything that it takes.... will you conquer the world?... will you control everything?... How will you feed your unstopping hunger for everything... Those who have known those who have noticed... those who have realized... those who have changed... those who are not anymore human.... have known this... what is the worth of this world?.... what will I gain after I had everything this world could offer?.... how will it move?... is my will enough to moive it?.... everything.... will only become nothing....

What is it that you hate the most?... what is it that you fear the most?... why do you fear?... why are you afraid?... sad... lonely... still... threatened... not accepted... everything sinks deep into your soul... piling ip slowly... unending... forbidden... sealed... inside you memories... cannot be stopped... cannot be controlled... it breaks away from everything... making sure that nothing holds it down... hiding... waiting for a chance... waiting for a moment... to engulf you... to blanket you... to trap you... in unending despare.... no hope... no chance... nothing... without help... with no one to help... with nobody's help... cry... plead.... vow... hate... hate... hate... end everything... yes... come out of the depts of your soul... show your true darkness... and everything else will vanish... and as you cry tears of blood... while insanely laughing your life out... and slowly shatter your your soul... shred it to pieces... as you end your life... in bleeding rampage...

I am blessed... I am Cursed... I am Holy...I am dammned... Destiny abides me... Destiny Rejects me... They Fear... They Praise... They pray... They Reject.... words of hope.... words of despair...  wanderring endlessly... locked up and chained... they who proclaim good... they who proclaim evil... A peaceful Paradise... A chaotic World... Darkness... Light... Good... Evil... Sorrows of atonement... Joys of widrawals... Puzled up.... Brocken Down... Strong... Weak.... Encourage.... Regret.... shadows of chaos... Light of order... the world we know... shall soon shatter.... the world we know... shall soon end...

Your fate... Your seal... Your end... finishing  everything without predicting that it is meant for you.... shallow dreams  drenched in obsessions of knowing the future.... only drowns you in selfish confusions that is endless... worries that aren't even there.... because of thinking about something that may happen... why do people have to put so much thought into things that they feel like coming to be.... why  can't they just live their days off worrying what tommorow brings?... why must they want to further away inbto the future and worry about it?... why?... why?... is it just the nature of humans to worry of what may come to them?.... is this a luxury or a curse?... what and why?....

A solem pledge... A tragic melody... A blade drenched in blood... A song of terror... A swindled pledge... A voice trembling in fear... what is behind you?... what is the darkness that you seek?... what is that you fear the most... I will give you anything... but nothing is free... whatever you desire shall be paid evenly... if you ask for light then I'll sink  you into darkness... If ask for hope then I'll burry you in dread... If you seek blessings then I'll send you a curse... an equivalent of what you desire the most... and an equivalent of what you despaired of all...  so what will it be that you want?.... I shall grant it for you.. but also I will take the price...

I who is one with darkness... who lives in the ruling visions of chaos... who walks the path of  death and destruction... who values no life... who never fears... who always fears... who wanders endlessly...  who sees no truth nor lies... shall offer this pledge.... to bring the words of the end... to worship the endless night...  to fade in the shadows of death... never severing my bonds with darkness... from which all my truths exist... I who worship nothing... who follows no one... who is in solitude for all of eternity... shall never break this seal of oaths... until the day chaos steals my soul....

We are the forsaken... we envy we grieve... aimlessly wandering in this endless labyrinth... seeking a meaning to live... we who was frozen... in this paradise of death... where everything's shattered... and boundlessly trapped...  struggling to break free... struglling to break free.... from all these vicious thoughts... screaming in fear and hunger.... creeping and crawling in this bloodstained floor... where what we see  above us... a kaleidoscope of blades and corpses... stuck upon the walls of this endless helish prison... we who believed only in darkness... who never fears the end.... are now being judged to be evil... and was punished to sent to this labyrinth... of sharp blades and dead bodies.... will our fate be the same?....

My life... afraid of light... not able to live in the brightness... always hiding... always behind something.... following someones back... not stopping.... not knowing... a reflection?... no... what are you?... a being of darkness... that is bound to everything... what will happen if I disappear?... the darkness... my paradise... my world... why cant I be with the light?... I who live where no light is found... whose life depends on those that cover us from the light... what is our purpose?... why do we strugle to consume the light?... why do we strugle to flee the brightness.... why?... why?...

marks... in my skin... most are unseen...

proof of a life... that always fight for rights...

fractured bones... numbing and cold...

screaming... for the pain to subside...

crawling on the ground I try to stand...

lifting up my head I try to comprehend...

what exactly had happened...

why I ended up this way...

(Chorus)

fallen... deep in the darkness...

of worlds  full of madness...

I cry out... tears of blood to ease the pain...

forgotten... never been forgiven...

trying reclaim what... I have lost inside...

My sickened mind....

wounds... that wont heal...pain so real...

piercing inside... my lifeless heart...

pieces of thoughts... shrouded in lies...

never revealing their eyes...

slowly been craving... for truth so unshaken...

by words that forsake your own destiny...

trying to hide... from the fear deep inside you...

I shout this voiceless refrains...

(chorus 2 maybe)

the shadows are are coming...

and will soon  be haunting...

the souls that have wandered the night...

their screams will be shattering...

visions of saving the world that once been defiled...

and inside this madness...

foolishness and madness...

I try to reclaim what's in sight...

and soon the vision fades....

the world sleeps like page...

of memories  fearing the end to approach...

and nightmares wont stop...

these cruel and vicious thoughts...

forever... forever... forever...

Visions... not stopping... always revealing the end... what do they mean?... confusing me with realistic moments... but slowly fogging my sanity... it slowly eats away my soul... slowly driving me into madness.... stop it! stop it please!!!.... why wont it stop!!!... what is it that you want to tell me!!!... I hear voices... voices laughing... as if they are amazed by my slow drift to madness... why  wont they go away... plaese stop it!... some one!... someone!... make this visions stop!... I can't take it anymore... someone... anyone.... please reach out... pull me away from this endless nightmares... anybody... Help....

The end of a race... The vanishment of a civilisation... Death beyond comprehension... endless killing without stop... ending everything in one blow... gone without a trace... we fear it... we avoid it... we do everything to prevent it... but is there anything we can do to stop it?... we may extend for a long time... but still it doesnt mean it has stopped... it will still come... it will still haunt our memories... where ever... when ever... not stopping... trying to find an opening... trying to find a chance... waiting... waiting patiently... to end everything in one single strike... to wipe out everything in one single blow... with nowhere to escape... nothing to hide to.... all we could do is accept... accept that it is the end... an end that cannot be stopped.... an end that we cannot escape from... an end of everything... nothing will be left behind... everything will be gone without a trace...

A beauty... A curse... Stained in crimson... dripping with luster... as it glows in the moonlit sky... surrounded by ruptured corpses... an image of death itself... and the one who weilds it... is still in an endless daze... looking at the fool moon... an empty expression is plastered... upon its bloodstained face... after a long endless battle... what is it that you fight for?... ask the last living one in the place... he silently turn... and reveals a dreadful grin... it rushes to the survivor... then slicing it in half... and soon the endless silence... fills again this bloody sight... soon something breaks the silence... a cold sound that could kill souls... a demonic laughter... a mad cry... an insanely wild laughter.... the night is still young... he gazes again in the moon... waiting for his next victim... to paint his bloody weapon...

A prison... An abbysmal labyrinth... where nothing exist and nothing can exist... cruel and wreckless... silent and calm... insanly maddening... I wander alone... seeking everything... in these unknown space... blanketed with nothingness... and filled with emptiness... is it a world alone?... a patch in space... feared by everything... and fears nothing... I travel this world... trying to learn its emtiness... measuring its endless deepness... wandering endlessly... in this labyrinth in this prison... numb of feeling... blinded by nothingness... and crushed with emptiness... I strugle to know... I want to feed my curiosity... even if everything breaks apart...

An image of holiness... A sinful madness... displayed to all... like a beautiful portrait... a painting of flesh and blood... and a slow upcoming death... dreached in sun and rain... ignoring the endless pain... raised high from the ground... feels like soaring the skies... blanketed by blood... and nailed with agony... never falling... never stoping... an endless play... that always ends in death... what is it that you represent?... is it a sign of salvation?... or a picture of madness?... what eyes does witness this?... is it the saints who punish evil?... or is it a play to amuse the damned?... is it to a sacrifice that you wish to be... or is  it a cruel penalty... wherein always ends with death... where is the holiness... where is the madness... everything will vanish... at the moment you end your breath...

Shadows calling... my time blurring...

trying to hide... from suffering....

finding a place... to stay awake...

as I cry these tears away... I lie...

Every memory melodies...

that flew away from time...

sickens my desires...

as life slowly fades...

I walk alone in these darkness...

forbidden to find a place...

to stay up all night...

I shout these lonely lines...

"I'm still awake, I'm still aware

I'm still alive"

Visions changing... sad songs playing...

my minds breaking... from this endless silence...

I tried to act... but failed to track...

how to reclaim my self...

Shattered hearts filled sorrows...

Confuses me as I take this path...

Shouldering these cursed vision..

Of tragedies and a dreadful past...

will I ever free the chains?...

trying to reclaim my name...

as I wander... helplessly away...

Slowly... Slowly... the darkness approaches...

Slowly... My mind hits its limits...

will everything end?...

will the shadows blend...

with my bloody hands....

The sun sets... slowly... the night embraces my visions... the sky... slowly changing its colors... I watch... not moving... waiting... waiting... for everything to change... as the blanket of light... is slowly engulfed by shadows... as the world slowly unfolds... its hidden side... where no light resides... where only darkness reigns... I wait... for the moment... when everything is drenched... with unending darkness... waiting for the moon... to follow its radiance... under the blamket of the night... I now wander... endlessly... for I seek a treasure... a sacred existance... that is shouded in darkness... its beauty is astonishing... as it glows in the moonlight... it is fierce... yet tempting... for it feeds in blood...  its firece fangs... so dreadful yet so charming... its eyes... that pierce4s your soul... yet traps you in ecstacy... so strong to be resisted... I seek it... the one and only... for I seek its fangs... to sink in my neck... to be drained of... the feeling that I always have saught... for I have become its servant... who seeks to feed its master with thy blood... I seek it... I seek it...

what I do not have... what I do not posses... is there something greater than what I have attained?... why must someone be much greater than me... am I really that small?... am I just a bakground in a painting... and backup singing his own song... fighting for the light... rushing to get the gold... why must someone surpass me?... they shouldn't exist... they must not exist!... I must be the only one!... only me!... a great being... being worshied... being desired... I want all that attension... give it to me... and ony me!... yes that's right... I'm an angel that descended from heaven... come and lick my shadow... hahahaha... be blinded by my greatness... I am the only one... no one else should be able to surpass me... but now why am I like this... living everyday of my life trying to survive... without anything else... everyone has already surpassed me... what greatness would I still get?... the only greatness now I posses... Is a piece of paper and a pen... alone with all of my desires... as I write every piece of what I had... but soon ran away at sight... I who once possesed everything but now has nothing... one who was worshiped before but now is being shunned and pittied... A am a king of reaches now I'm just a king of thieves... trying to attain what I cannot anymore... trying to strive for nothing... will my life just slowly fade this way?...

A link to the past....

A shadow never Fading...

A piece of a puzzle never solved...

A lie unforgiven...

A truth unmistaken...

A sin that would never be taken...

There are no other rules

that vanished through the night...

All the pain and the wounds

were swallowed by desires...

unmistakenly alighned

by the tragedies of fate

Unmistakenly lost

In a melody... of hate......

A vision full horrors...

A mission filled with tears...

A session filled anger and

A tension filler with fear...

A time to deny....

What see with your eyes...

never ending chaos

is engulfing your desire...

Seeking words forgiveness

trying not to embrace...

all the fear and the darkness

tearing up you fate...

if you hear then please listen

to my own advice...

theres is no such place

to be called paradise...

do you believe in destiny...

a simple play of fate...

an endless chain of tragedies...

a worship of disgrace...

end everything now...

plummet to the ground...

sink into your own grave...

and ply... this song.... (END)....

For righteousness... for the glory of pride... banish the evil... banish the dark... smite them with thunder break them with holyness... shatter their damned souls with a purified seal... the judgement of heavens... merciless.... not leaving any trace of the darkness that was once known... but still that darkness... no matter how many times you destroy them.... no matter how you obliterate themmm they will still stand... for deep withing the light... even in the void of the light darkness still exist... but to only consider darkness to be evil... is only a belief which has brocken down the course of man... man who only seeks light... who never realized the truth around them... the ever existing truth that without darkness there is no light that they utmost seek... there would be no sights if one of those two went missing... man is obsesed with light... thats why they throw away darkness... mark it as evil... and endlessly believed in the concept that evll will always be dark and good will always be light.... the truth of this world... from which the true judgement sleeps... shall soon awaken... to cleanse this land... what will that judgement be?... will it be of the light of darkness?... or will it be of the abyssmal labyrinth?.... a light so bright that it blinds your sight... or a darkness so deep it sinks you into the depts of the abyss... Light orv Darkness... neither is Bad nr Good... what is it that you believe in?... what is that you see... are they really enemies?... or are they unbreakbly bonded together... what is that you believe?...

The night has come.... trees rustling.... footsteps of unknown beasts shatters the silent night... humming... continously humming... wrning everyone around for their arival... prepare the sacrifice... prepare the meal... or you will be eaten... and left without a trace... the night proceeds to its vicious cycles... voices... screaming... asking for help.... what is happening now?... everywhere you hear screams... and nothing but screams are painting the midnight melodies with fear and terror... petrified hearts asking for salvation... will there be help?... what would you expect?... in a world without anything... a world filled with only the rules of the wild... you who are weak shall be eaten... you who are strong shall hunt the weak... it the unmentioned law that fill this realm... a realm full of hunters... hungering to hunt as the day withers....

Crossing a black cat's trail... Passing under a ladded... walking on someones shadows... seeing someone who looks exactly like you... and many more things... that is supersticious in nature... hating someone to the point of dying... Depressed over the world... ending ones life because things didn;t go your way.... what a dreadful way to curse... looking for a meaning... getting confused on the simpliest things... wanting more than what you have... indications that soon you will commit something evil or so... what do they represent... why do we believe in them?... are they real?... the world we see is filled with many things... everything is just an unknown piece of information that may be true at some point... the only question that would reside them is... "Do you believe?...." so I ask you how do you see this things as?... how did it change everything you once knew... what changes has it given you?...

Constricting... slowly rngulfing... slowly running out of breath... like a snake... not willing to break away.... I gave in to the cold unending sensation.... of pain... preassure... as my life slowly drifts away... my vision slowly fade... as I am being engulfed... in this unbreakable chains... that slowly and securely... wrapping me... in a tinght bind... not letting go... not stopping... slowly... slowly... squeezing the life out of me... will this stop when I die?... will this end when I'm out cold?...

Trapped in a world filled with illusions... I wander endlessly... seeking light... seeking promises... in these prison of endless dreams... will I ever wakeup?.. watching the images that surround me... which seems like an endless colidascope of memories... never fading in my sight... getting lost in this vividly dim place... where thoughts materialize their shapes... like a frozen wonderland... of lonely hearts take place... tales that was forgotten... seem to find their place... in this lonely prison... where silent melodies plays... I keep wander... chasing my rights... in this endless prison... I chase the daylights...

A silent place... where guilotines chase your neck... where cold shards of blades scatter... a place of execution... a place where sinners plagued... a world filled with cruelty and sin... dark... cold... merciless... filled with souls full of hate... bodies filled with wounds... corpses filled with worms... everyone chants... chating filled with pain... trying to amend... trying to flea... the cruel reality that surrounds them... is this the fate of a sinner?... or is this the path of a saint?... endlessly searching for a meaning to live... or has already given up on everything... this is the sinners paradise... a apradise where only death surrounds you... this is the forgotten path of a saint... where one must witness and accept... are you a sinner or are you a saint?... if this reality is brought upon you... will you ever accept this fate?...

Running... Running... Running... Eyes!.... Eyes are following!... Don't look at me!!!... no!!!... get away from me!!!... why wont you stop looking?!!!!... why!... why!!... why!... why do you keep following me!... Rushing for my life... I flea into the darkness... the piercing eyes watches my back... even in the depts of darkness... I can definitely feel their gaze... their cold stare... slowly creeping inside me... why wont they stop!!!... how will I stop them!... please leave me alone!!!... the eyes!... the horrible eyes!... Someone help me get away... somebody!!... anybody!!... is there anyone out there who can take away.. these gaze from the depts of hell...

our world... our place... our home... everything seems changing... as times strikes its hands... but as the change slowly progresses... the withering quickly relapse... this would that once filled with chaos... may now seem to be at peace... but what you see before you... is just a memory of bliss... for this world once has ended... from a madness filled with grief... torments of the past... now blooms as sacred tears... flowing in the endless... river of your dreams... melodies that cried... filled with demise... now fades in the memory of the world that once died... yet everything was brought  back to its begining... as melodies call forth its endless pleadings... will this again meet its end?... will we be able.. to hold even a strand... of hope for a future... where everyone would smile... or end up again brocken... filled with darkness and lies... what the future holds... may always be uncertain... but a tragedy may unfold.. if your eyes are not open...

Souless bodies scatters... as far as my sight can reach... a place blanketed by darkness and cold silence plays its piece... a world of endless nightmares... wich doesn't disapear upon wake... everything is not moving... and not a single soul is in place... what only surrounds you... are bodies made clay... lifeless and souless you'll feel like they very much betray... your very presense screams and frightened... for what surrounds you that time... is an army of slouless monsters... ready to take away your life... yet they still stay frozen... in this parody of fear... waiting for you to breakdown... and steal your soul at ease... this is a place of nightmares... a sacred land of the damned... a helish land of chaos... where all you see is darkness... and souless bodies striking fright... madness and insanity.... fill its air with dear... fear of losing your soul... as you climb this helish tree...

I am chaos... shrouded in darkness... feared... hated... alienated... no one hears my preachings... everyone denies my truth... no one believes my existance... no one follows my rules... I seek no friends... I seek no followers... I seek no one to be with me... for I am the embodiment of everything that is not accepted... I am a soul that leads this world to its end... a lonely soul blanketed by darkness... and death never fleas my sight... I am one with chaos ... with one and only one goal... seek forth the embodiment of order... for that is my soul purpose... nothing else will satisfy me... than to fulfil this boudless wish... who is the oracle of order... that what my presence only seeks... where will I find it... when where or how?... I endlessly wonder... as I walk this endless crowd...

Fly... oh fly... oh big and bold butterfly... soked in blood it fleas he skies... its eyes ae painted full of madness... as a founteain of blood smeas its sadness... its wings so wide yet so britle... like it would beak by touching a little... Its beauty flows without a pause... but time might stop if you see is claws... behind the mask of a bewitching smile... its sinister fangs you will defile... a face of a maiden it shows so sly... a face of a demon hides behind filled with lies... oh butterfly... full of beauty... full of dread... how vicious you those bloody heads... as corpses cawl upon you eyes... you fce never withers its frightful smile...

Do you believe in magic?... Do you believe in espes?... Magic... a power to manipulate you suoundings... a will to control the world...  a power that supases hat of common knowledge... Ae you a mage?... Forced Reality...  a foce conjued by the mind... a weapon of unknown origins... a foce that relies on concentation and will power... are you an esper?... do they actually exist?...  people of unimaginable powe... surpassing every limits of the common mind... not known to the world we knew... thei existance... Unknown... heir wereabous... not found... explanations... none... but do you still believe in their existance?... why?... o maybe... ae you one of them?...

Danger... Danger... Danger...

Boom!.... Are you ready?...

Blissful melodies filled with lies....

Freezing time and space...

Everything else is denied...

Fighting dreadful dreams... I fly!...

Looking for a path...

Where no one else sees my past...

trying to protect a melody...

drenched in blood and cruelty...

(Chorus...Mabye...)

Cruel worlds... of wild dreams...

Embracing... Erasing the end...

Wothless deeds... and sufferings...

polluting... my painful amends...

I cry tears of blood...

drenched in a cloud of dust...

choking... my life away...

(2nd stanze... maybe...)

And soon the visions call...

erasing the sudden fall...

crawling in my memories...

saddening my dreams...

And soon the words collide...

with worlds the darkness never ties...

And soon the hymns would break...

in silence... in endless disgrace...

(refrain... Maybe...)

So long good days.. finding a way...

break out... and sent your thoughts insane!...

(Chorus 2... Maybe...)

Cruel Fate... Of tragedies...

Insulting... Engulfing my hate...

Remedies... of worthless worships...

Soon will be turning away....

The scars and the malice...

break through... the endless sadness...

will it change... will it change my place?...

(Finale.... Maybe....)

And soon this cruel dream will end....

Melodies fading from the strands...

of time that endlessly demands...

you life to fall... upon... Its... Hands.....

Isolate... Locked up... Never interact with anyone... I am alone... I am alone... always alone... no one believes me... no one is believing me... no one will believe me... for what I see is not real... is not suppose to be real... It has been so unreal... the visions... the scenes... everything... trapped inside my memories.... I do not how... I do not know why.... All I know is that it is there... lurking in the corners of my head...  I try to tell people... I try to tell my friends... I even tired to tell myself... but even my own self rejects it... was it really true?... will it really happen?... I always ask myself... and soon everyone... and soon anyone.... but.... no one ever cared... no even bothered listening... and worst of all... everyone even started rejecting even my own existance... why?... why are they here?... for what reason did they stay inside my memory... and for what purpose.... how will I end this cold and cruel reality... that was trapped inside of me... will anyone ever believe me?... or will I just suffer with alone... trapped... in my own lone prison....

flames that burns your soul... spike that drives endless pain... a carnival of endless death... a room of fear and terror... welcome to my land... filled with screams of chaos... where everything seems lifeless... yet moving in a painful melody... who songs are cries of deathly voices... and laughters reach the bottoms of hell... dark and cruel... shivering and hot... frozen yet burning... the feelings at sight... this world filled with horror... that even frightens the day... come with me and enjoy... a visit to this dreadful place... those who wish for amusement... where everything ends in death... are you willing to take the challenge... and come out alive?... will you come with me and walk through... this endless paradise of death?... are you prepared?... are you strong enough?... are you willing enough?... to accept everything and live through it?... test your strenght... survive to live.... or die and rot... will you be able to escape?... escape from the amusement of death....

Beyond the woods of chaos... Surrounding the castle of fear... There stands a garden... fuilled with beauty... Drenched in tears... this is my paradise... cloaked in endless crimson... filled with roses... filled with thorns... filled with corpses... blooming... ravishing... rotting... a mix of beauty of of life and horrors of death... blood and petals scatter everywhere... glistening in the moonlight.. oh what a frightful beauty... oh oh what a gruesome sight... this is my garden... my only sanctuary... a symbol of my pleadings... an image of my game... a vision of my life... drenched in endless battles... for I am still standing... atop this garden of crimson... yes this is my paradise... and this is my prison... and endless night... and endless war... an endless passion... of bloodlust... madness... insanity... beauty... and death... will you let me paint your blood... in these endless garden?... come... and become my next guest...

The world darkens upon my vision... can'r recognize anything... can't understand anything... everything is so blurry... what is this feeling... filled with hate... greed... lust... I don't know how to contain it anymore!!!... what should I do!.... I hunger for something... but doesn't even know what... I thirst for pain... pleasure... sadness sinking deep inside me... cutting deep within me... lust... embracing my verry soul... confusion spreads throughout my body... not knowing what to do... not knowing where to go,.... pain carves itself upoon my flesh... as insanity slowly rots my mind... still hungering for something... I seek for anything that is near my sight... cut it down torn it apart and strove it into my mouth... filling me... but still not enough... the hunger still doen't subside... I want more... more!!!... must satisfy this hunger... but what is really that I hunger for?... I can't even tell.. how will this feeling end.... How will it stop!!!....

Come with me on a trip... where no one else has ever been through... a place where darkness blankets the land... whose grounds are paved by ice and fire... the freezing scorch ingites your pleasures... and engulfs you in unending ecstacy that sinks deep into your soul... upon its gates of blazing steel... where corpses hang like a painting of fear... upon entering you will be welcomed... by a chilling screem that breaks your wisdom... madness slowly creeps in your mind... as you slowly wander in the dreadful sight... pain, suffering, fear, and dread... displayed like an amusement place for watchers to gaze.... feast your eyes on rotten flesh... scattering around like a plie of grasses... pirced, frozen, torn apart... they scatter like garbage on a field so wide... as madness sinks deep in your soul... your sanity burns in an endless recoil... will you keep you mind to calm... upon the sight the will dream from... the further you go the horrors complie... how long will your mind hold on its disguise... come now be with realease it all... embrace insanity and feel the fall... when madness finaly sinks its horried fangs... and insanity blows up your soul in flames... the gates will close and never be open... this place will be your prison in as endless as time demands...

hungry hearts screaming for freedom...

faintly fades in the bloody rain...

frozen in the memories of time...

I seek to end this worthless game...

A game bound by painful screeches...

drifting endlessly through the night...

In frightful laughter they dance in pain...

as shadows slowly consume their life...

so deeply wounded yet still alive...

they struggle through the dreadful sight...

of corpses piling on blazing grounds...

and soon creeps into them a song of fright...

slowly tearing their minds with light...

as slowly as their visions fade...

a flock of voltures feast on their remains...

a darkness falls upon their face...

the night has started a deathly gaze...

lifeless are their bodies now...

and the night devoured the endless howls...

I see before me... what others don't see... threads soked in darkness... unending as it be...  spreading throughout my vision as I retrace what I've seen... is this a premonition... or is this a sickening curse... I follow the thread in wonder... as to where it may end... and soon I lost my lines of judgement... as something hits my sight... a body of a woman... drenched heavily in blood... sleeping like an angel... surrounded by a crimson blanket... I closed my eyes and whispered... "Is this all just a bad dream?"... and soon fall to my knees and and tremble... as my eyelids slowly opens... a gruesome sight of death... so violent yet so lovely... a pleasing work of art to say... as I slowly examine thee... after returning to reality... I noticed something strange... the strings that I saw earlier... wraps up this cursed display... could this be really a premonition... or just a simple delusion... but the truth i front of me... never vanished from my vision... It burnt my eyelids black... and shved my memories with haze... why did such sight came to me... why did I end up there... I do not know... I do not want to know... I was scared of what's to come... I just hoped that tommorow... my normal days would come...

A night... and endless night... winds chattering... wolves howling... rushing from a mountain top... its wing wide as the moonlit sky... it flies... hovering... looking for its pray... eyes stained in red... silently observing the premises.... silently.... eyes wandering around... and from a far it sees something... something akin to a man... walking slowly... it shifts its wings and turn to its pray... without noticing... the man moves on... silently... silently... it slowly closes its wings as it prepares for a dive... the poor man never new what was coming... not even in the slightest... then a thunderous sonic boom hits the man... who didn't even reconize what had happen... as silent as the night everything went still... as if time itself has stopped upon the descent of that devil... soon the silence is brocken by a horrible screech.. yes it the man whose half of its body falls to his feet... and soon the silence returns once again... the man went missing as the dawn strikes its ends...

lonely... lifeless... frightened to the core... seeking light... seeking hope... shut tighed... chained... locked up... can't breath... can't see... you... where is everyone... where am I?... lost?... how?... why?... seeking refuge... seeking warmth... cold... so cold... are you?... wandering endlessly... voicesless... frozen... yes... no... no choices... no links... no path... will you?... be with someone?... either hated nor loved?... either admired nor feared... what is that you seek?... providence?... wisdom?.... accompaniment?... anything?... everything?... why?... why?... what is that you really wan't?... or are you still you?... do you know yourself/... do you know who you trully are?... the you that others couldn't see... the you that is only you... do you know?... answer me... answer me... tell me... I wan't to know... I wan't to know...

I am lost... don't know what to do... don't know where to go... surrounded by an endless silence... engulfed in deep darkness... sad... lonely... dreadful... slowly suffocating in this lifeless world... nothing to touch... nothing to see.. nothing to hear nor smell... how do I get out of here?... what path should I choose?...  where will they lead me?... how will I end up?... I'm scared... scared to know... scared of what's ahead... so tempting... yet so frightening... each of them... so mysterious... I can't see their ends... I can't... I don't know what to choose... no one can help me... no one... only me... fighting... fighting against everything... fighting against myself... will what I choose be what's good for me?.. I don't know... that's why I'm afraid... that's why I'm still here... alone... without anyone... without anything... alone... alone... forever alone...

Open you eyes and see the world...

slowly drifting in my melodies...

embraced by the light and gracefull symphonies...

fade on a moonlit night...

gaze in a starry sky...

walk like a song that gently sweep all your memories...

I will be there... I will be here...

waiting for a world that wanna see...

even if the end comes... even if the night falls...

I will be waiting here for you....

endlessly waiting here for you....

this is the part that I translated and edited.... so hard to translate... but the lyrics itself is good...

Songs of warmth embracing me... against the lonely winds of the endless night... a melody soft and sweet... that sinks deep into my soul... so tempting yet so pure... the melody dances within... so cold yet so soothing... as it floats gently into my ears... find a place of silence... and be wrapped in this endless phaze... the melodies that heals my sadness... and the memories I tried to erase... it calms my mind and soul... as I slowly drift to sleep... engulfed in this endless melody... my presence slowly drifts in peace...

Are you afaraid to be alone?... wandering endlessly... or just staying the corner of a room... no one cares... no one sees... no one listens... trapped in an endless space... seek me... look for me... in this endless void... come with me... I won't leave you alone... let us go to a journey... seek thyself... I am you... you are me... look for me inside of you... the you that should never exist... the you that you have always thought of as nothing... open thy eyes... sharpen thy ears... and seek me... seek my voice... I am inside you... waiting... waiting endlessly... to hear out your call... to feel your warmth... find me... when your alone... when no else sees you... when no one else would listen to you... I will be there... everytime you are alone... everytime you are ignored... everytime that you feel like in a void... I will always be waiting... waiting patienly... waiting endlessly... for your lonely cries...

How long will I live?... When will I die?... on what way?... did you ever think about it?... to for death?... or awaitng your end... knowing you'll die someday... a limited time... a envisioned time... a predicted time.. a time... time of the end... time when everything becomes nothingness... If you will be given a chance to change this... what will you do?... run away?... don't think about it?... change it?... for what purpose?... why?... sigh... why do I even keep asking... In simple ways... everyone fears death... death... wich has become a being of its own... what is death exactly?... do we really have to face the end?... I seek wisdom... wisdom to know... know everything... from start to end... but is there anything more to know in the end?... what's the use of starting something if it would just end?.... did you ever think of such things?... annoying... frightening... exciting... vexing... fulfilling... mind breaking... an end... an end to all... where everything becomes nothing... what will it be like?... I want to know... I want to know... I want to know...

A hunter of the night... A terror by midnight... so frightenning... Its shadow shreds silence... Its howls creeps you with fright... oh how will I stop thinking... about such a gruesome sight... its movements are merciless... yet so beautiful to witness... so painfull to expirience... so dreadfull to comprehend... what is that you seek?... for what reason do you kill?... why can't you die?... I witness its beauty... with a dreadful smile... as I was showered with crimson... from the victims tha it sliced... so frightnening yet so alluring... its claws... its fangs... its face... I want it... I want it all... sink it into me... those beatifully dreadfull claws... let me feel its power... its sharpness... fill me with ecstacy... with pain... I want to feel every bit of it... what is this feeling... why do I want it... is it fear that drives me?... pleasure?... this murderous fangs... that slowly caves in me... slowly... painlessly penetrating me... sink them deep... what is this pleasure... am I enjoying this pain... or was my fright changed to pleasure... questions in my head... that keeps overflowing... as life slowly drifts... away from feelings... and slowly this world... begins to vanish along with my breathing...

Staring at the moon... I look around my surroundings... the visions are different... the scenes have changed... everything feels so new... this sensation... that so unending... yet feels so short... will soon fade... as the nightlight flew... everything around me... is shaded in black... blanketed by moonlight... astonishing... breathtaking... filled with silence... winds stop... time seems to slow down... as I listen on those sacred howls... when almost all... is deep in slumber... a new world befalls this sacred altar... cold... yet soothing... silent... yet deafening... empty... yet so fulfulling... this is my paradise... a paradise that secretly hides... secretly vanishes... secretly fades... as the dawn approaches... this paradise... engulfed in darkness... this paradise... blanketed by moonlight... this paradise... this place... this time... this endless... Midnight...

A sudden instance... on my sight... everything... changed.... without even noticing... without even interpreting... they changed so suddenly... what is this feeling... why is so real... yet so unreal... a sight... a sound... a touch... all my senses starts to panic... excited?... shiverring?... cowering?... is it fear?... is it excitement?... what am I suppose to do?... how should I react?... I stand in place... not moveng... almost not breathing... pinned in one possition... frozen... time stopped... unmovable... everything else don't affect me... I froze... shutting everything off... no more feeling... no more sight... suddenly... everything starts to fade.... slowly.... slowly... everything turned black...

memories... puzzles... concepts of creation... start.... finish... begin... end... rushing towards the future... preparing for the future... all this?... I don't know.... I don't want to know... I must not know... what do they have to do with my life?... why?... why?... why?... what should i begin with... I'm confused... How should i end it?... what should i prepare for?... what is that I must prepare/... is there something out there?.... my cannot take it anymore... getting worried over everything... thinking... thinking... thinking... ahhhhh!.... what?... why?... How?... choose... select.... everything is in confusion.... why do I have to even ask?... live?... for what?... why?... why must I live?... what must I accomplish?... everything is just a question.... whnat is a question anyway?... why do I ask?... I'm sick of all this?... why am I even sick of it... I don't know... I don't know.... I don't know.... how should I start?... where?.... when?... why?... everything... there should just be nothing... everything... should be a blank... yes... everything... Just nothingness... peace?... silence?... calmness... everything... is nothing... nothing is everything... you can't see feel hear... a void... yes... it is a void... this should keep me at ease... the nothingness... keep everything to nothingness... not clearness... but nothingness...

Screams of pain... drenched in sadness... beckoning the darkness that impale their hearts... Cries of madness... over forbidden vows... that break the silence of a moonlit crowd... Murmuring terrors... that seeks your sleep... injecting nightmares from a deadly screech... tragic songs that skewers lives... where is the truth where is the lie... Sad melodies of ghastly frames... soothing insanity with a stabing chain... freezing calls of spectry lives... dances endlessly into the night... my voice no longer see its light... for all the terror entrapped its cries... My melody painted in dark disguise... seeks its presence in a world full of lies...

Our world... Our time... Our place... Our Space... Are we alone?... are there other worlds?... is the time we spent the same as others?... In our sight is there only 1 field of diementions?... the world we know... do we really know it?... what secrets might it be hiding?... what truths have been sealed?... what lies facade our visions?... what lives our ignorance may share?... as we see things in front of us... is this what these things really are?... or is our vision just help us... escape a sight we might betray... worlds alone are there... never been seen and never foretold... shortcuts of time and space scatter everywhere... without realizing it we just ignore... truth are all around us... painted indept with lies... are the things we see in front of us... the truth we have always acquired...

Who I trust... Who I love... Who I want to be with... Who would share everything with me... Who would never betray me... Who would never lie... Who won't leave me alone... is now in front of my eyes... painted in crimson... lying on the ground... not moving... not speaking... not breathing... sleeping in silence... as a crimson glow shines brightly flowing out of his body...  as moonlight enlightens his lifeless form... I watched... gazing at him... endulging myself in ecstasy... smiling madly... holding a knife... where droplets of his blood slowly hits the ground... "You look wonderful"... I smile insanely as I stare at the stab in his back... "Why... Why did you betray me?..." "You who is so good to me..." "Who is always there for me..." "why must it be you?..." I looked up at the sky... ensaring myself in the moonlight... soon... droplets of tears... started to fall.. I didn't know why... but I laughed... laughed insanely!!!... laughed madly... then stared at his body again... saying my final words... "Thank you my friend... Well meet again..." "In Hell!!!"... I laughed again like crazy... maybe I really am crazy... I pointed the the knife at myself... and with a quick blow... I stab my heart... slowly I fell... hit the ground softly... so this is how it feels... still engulfing myself in ecstacy... I stared... Stared at my friend lying next to me... my precious most treasured friend... and smiled... as my vision slowly darkens... until everything turned black... until the last breath I had...

Endoulge yourself... in pleasure... but still not enough... take everything... but still somethings missing... fill yourself with everything but still not yet satified... this has always been how things are... this world... this life... even in the most fulfilling times.. there still isn't enough... humans... always... never feel satisfied at all... no matter how much they have... no matter how much they take... no matter how much they owe... no matter how much they own... they will never be satisfied... that's why they strugle... take everything... own everything... wanting to have all of that they see... all of that they want... no stopping... no skipping... desires... dreams... wants... needs... there are just so many things... no matter how much they fill themselves still that still won't be enough... not even time alone... can fill all of this... because... we are greedy... we live in a world filled with greed... with live along with greed... no matter what form what value it takes... it is still greed... no matter how good you describe it... it will still be greed... and greed alone... so everyone... admit it... "You Are Greedy!!!"...

Are you willing to sacrifice yourself... for the sake of those you cherish??.... or are you willing... to sacrifice others... to save yourself??... if fate would grip you... with a dreadful choice... sacrifice yourself or sacrifice someone important to you... what will you choose?... A naive mind would say... "I would sacrifice myself for the sake of those I cherish...." but is it really that great?... become and noble sacrifice?... for the sake of?... Pride?... Honor?... For the people you care for?... is it really that great to be a living sacrifice to save those that are important to you?... what will those people you've left behind feel?... did you ever think about them this way?... put yourself in their shoes and think?...how horrible does it feel to loose someone important to you... I don't know... and I may not know... for when I sacrifice myself I'm already dead... will you sacrifice others?... are you willing to take the blame?... blame for yourself... blame of other... the grief... the guilt... the unpleasant sight of seeing someone die for your sake?... are willing to take all of this?... will you feign ignorance?... or just fill yourself with a greedy smile and say... "I lived he died thats all there is to it"... neither are bad or good... neither care less nor more... neither feign ignorance nor take everything in... but still... do you really have to choose?... so what shall you choose?... the choice will always be yours... whatever consequence may come... it all depends on your choice... so choose... choose... and know your worth...

Where am I?... what is this place?... There is nothing... There is no one... everything is engulfed in black... my eyes are open... yet nothing is seen... my body is moving yet nothing is touched... am I dead?... what is this place?... why am I here?... how will I escape this place?... someone!... anyone!... Help!... I scream and scream... yet no sound seems to come out... Secluded... Alone... and Cold... this place... what is this place?... there is no warmth... Am I even breathing?... Am I still alive?... why did I ended up here?... everyone... where are you?... where is everyone?... How?... How do I get out of this place... someone... if there is anybody out there... please... reach out for me... show me path... let me out of this cold isolate place... where everything seems to be frozen....

Who would like to see the end?... Will you travel with me?... Memories don't matter everythibng will be erased... towards the path that I will partake... no more prophecies... no more questions asked... will you come with on a journey towards the end?... I shall seek it... I shall find it... The path where there is nothingness... the path where it all ended... the path where it all started... So I invite you... This journey will be both an end... And a new begining... where life ended... and life started...

Seek me... and what you desire will be yours... seek me... and everything you sought will be answered... I am Chaos... everything revolves in me... what is it that you seek?... what is it that you want?... seek my order and I shall bestow upon you evrything... desires?... Dreams?... what is it that you really seek?... salvation?... Peace?... is there salvation?... is there peace?... I who brings everything to an end... have never found these words... what lies in the end is always the end... what begins shall end... even if its for eternity.... so I ask you what is it that you seek?... for everything starts in chaos and ends in chaos... chaos is everything... that will shall be bestowed upon those who seek my order... witness the begining and end... and you shall know... CHAOS is EVERYTHING...

Suffering... Endlessly... without stop... your life... what is its value?... For you to grieve over everything... does it pain for you to live?... Or is your life only filled with pain and suffering?... full of sorrows... agony... and fear... are you still willing to live this life?... will you seek providence?... will you look for help?... if everyone ignores you what will you do?... will you end it all by dying?... will you keep on strugling?... will you keep strugling?... will you try to stand up?... fight for your life?... even if its so painful that even dying alone would be a relief to you?... why?... why?... why?... is there still even hope?... maybe everything should just end.....
 

Lately I've been so busy can't think can't have fun can't go do the things I want.... So busy to even just look up in the sky and say "Nice weather today huh?...." so busy... so busy... so busy!.... sigh when will all this end!!!...

A fragment of my memory... has always been left with a question... Why am I alive?... when everyone around me died... If you ever survived a verry guesome fate... of being the only one left alive... after a seeing everyone around you fall... drenched in blood... and out of breath... a scene that has scarred you to the deepest of your soul... You asked... Why do I deserve to live?... Why is it me?... Why must it be me?... you kept asking... and keep on asking more as you burn you eyes on the bloody bodies that surround you... Do I really have to live?... To live for whose sake?... for what purpose?... why does everyone have to leave me behind?... You look up in the sky thinking... I would rather die with them than be like this... but why?... why must I live?... why must I live surrounded by the dead bodies of the ones I treasure the most?... I wan't to die... But I can't kill myself... someone... please... please... end my life now... so that this wretched scene may be erased from my mind once and for all... (Question.... Will you kill that sole survivor?... What will you do?... What will you tell him to do?... and why?..)

I you will be given... A life for eternity... Will it be a blessing... or will it be a curse?... Living for eternity is not a happy life... specially if you are forbidden to die... a sad lonely life only awaits you full of partings... endlessly wondering... watching time change everything... there may be happy times... but those times won't really matter... for they will only a temporary piece of happiness... that's why those who live forever... tend not to be with anyone... for their loneliness may stop for a moment... and be double when the end for their partners may come... only a piece of memory will be left behind... a scar that is engraved in the bottom of their hearts... would you like to live forever?... and watch over this world?... many have offered... but only few have accepted... for in exchange of forever... an endlessly cruel lonely fate would await you for eternity... So... Do you wan't to live forever?...

Death... a certain end... no more next time... no more once again... no more... what is after death?... what exist after it?... will our conciousness still wander after death?... will we be reborn?... will we go to heaven or hell?... many beliefs of things after death have remain as a question... but all I can see is that... when you die... that's it for this world... whatever happens after death is for you to think about the moment you die... that is the moment you die... if either you go to heaven hell or to any place there is... or if your consiousness would still remain... that is if it would still remain... then that would be the time you move about... as for now... I'm still alive... and as long as I'm alive... death has no meaning to me... whatever maybe in store for me when I die... I'll face it when I cross that point... for death alone is just a simple end of life... just live to your hearts content because when you die... even if were to be revived... everything will already be changed by the moment of your death... remember... death is the end... and maybe the begining of something new... this I know is the truth...

If you are given a chance to see into the future for a minute what will you do?... Will you peek at what your life will be?... Will you want to see who you end up with?... If it is a bad end that you see will you try to change?... will you force yourself on another future you may not know?... or just prepare for what is about to come?... The previlage of seeing the future is both a blessing and a curse... will you curse the one who gave you previlage to see it?... or would you sink yourself in satisfaction if you knew your path would be good?... think before you act... if you may see a bad future ahead are you going to think that it will all be bad and try to change everything?.. if you see a geed future will you not change and endulge yourself more in what you ussualy do?... even if what you will see will only only be for a minute?... will you assume that it will be it in just a small amount of time that have been revealed?...  well for most I guess yes... as for me I don't know... instead of thinking about those things I would rather be confused... confused of what to do anymore... It will rather be a big brduen to me... it will make me anxious about many things... to you what will it be?..

Did you live the way you want?... Is worth it to die now?... Have you ever been satisfied just being alive?... Did you ever regret that you were born?... Have you always wished that things would stay?... or did you always wished that everything should just end... what is your life?... what is your worth?... what is your place in this ever changing world?... do you even have to think about this?... Seek your meaning find your worth... Regret?... you should never ever regret... because its what you've done... and what's done is done... many wished to travel back in time... many wished to change the course of history... many even have been blinded by their on presence... they seek change... a change in what they have done... I that this should have been this... Why do you regret what you have done?... why do you want to change it?... is it really not that worh it that you are willing to go back in time to change everything?... did you ever think about the little amount of happiness you've gain?... or did you regret that you only have a small piece of blessing or been left with a curse?... you won't know maybe that so called curse you despise the most might be the absolute blessing you may have... think things through... why regret... filled with regret will you actually end your life?... how stupid is it?... to end your life with simple regrets... regrets are still your own... face them and seek their true form... maybe you might find something good about it ^___^...

This world will end soon... it may not be today... it may not be tommorow... it may not even be on the next milenia to come... but it surely will come... nothing starts that never ends... even the endless awaits for its end... what you seek today may disapear tommorow... what you don't have now may come someday... why do we seek salvation?.. is it to preserve our selves?.. for what?... no matter how long you wait perserve and hide... the end will still come to you... salvation?... escape fate?... for what reason?... to live?... to survive?... for what?... for tommorow?... for the next generation?... why would you partake such nonsense?... or is it that you believe you will be saved?.. be saved by who?... by what?.. for how long?... true you need to strive to survive... to prove your existance... to show proof that you lived through and through... but... why is it that your end still comes... even if you escape it many times it still comes... why hesitate?... why be stubborn enough to run away from it?... why do people even do everything just to survive on their own?... is their life really that worth saving?... only those who trully sved a life has the right to know... saving a life doesn't mean preventing someone from dying... it doesn't even mean that they have to live... saving a life is making a person believe that his life is worth it... wether you live or die it should be realized... salvation is a mere illusion or rather a mere fact that you have lived true... or just a mere feeling of escaping a certain death that would soon seek you towards the endless reals of time...

Peace is what everyone seek... or they so thought... but is it really peace that should prevail?... why?... for peace sake they kill... for peace sake they sacrifice... for peace sake thaey even lie... why is it so important to have peace?... is it really peace that we see through all this?... or is just a piece of mind that for peace peace sake they would do anything?... will we really be able to attain eternal peace?... what about those who died?... those whose lives were dreaded?... those who suffered in every way just to reach this peace?... why does it really have to be this way?... what is your understanding of peace?... why do we unite for peace?... what exactly is peace?... think about it and see... there are things that are even on the depts of war than can be considered peace... does peace really exist at the end of all this?.... or will it just start a new for form of war in its path to eternalize it?... Is this really peace?...

Religion and beliefs... exisist to provide a foothold for the lost... Beliefs and Advocations... Existst as support for life... Without a foothold you will fall... without support you cannot stand... life here on earth needs these both to survive that is what everyone believe or rather that is what everyone want to believe... do you believe in this?... do we realy need a foothold and support for us to stand in life?... do we exist only to be supported?... why?... do we... exist for someone else?... ^______^.... think... think deeply... for what purpose do we exist?...

Every reality has a pice of lie every lie has a piece of reality... the truth is not always true lies may even be sometimes true... this world exist in what we believe to exist and existance we believe in... the truth are mere pieces of beliefs taken form for we are special to make our beliefs true... test this... if you make more than a million people believe that aliens will come in contact with earthlings there will be a big possibility for it to come true... for it is a special train of humankind to force their own beliefs to reality as it is now... try to sit back and think... has there been anything you believed in that just existed without you even noticing?... dig in you memories and try to see... then you will realize... "Oh so that's how it is" ^______^

What is a god? a supreme existance... do they really exist?... for what purpose?... why did they even exist?... What is a demon?... An existance of darkness and evil... what are they really?... are they really that bad?...why did they exist to be bad?... is what they are doing actually evil?... What are angels?... An existance of light and good... do tthey really bask themselves in light?... are they really pure?... are they really good?... why are they good?.. why do they pursue to be good?... why do they exist to be good?... if everything would twist apart and angel be labeled as bad and demons be labeled as good... will angels really be bad?...  will demons really be good?... what will happen if no one believes in god?.. will he ever exist?... what will happen if there is no god?... will everything end?... will this be the end?... questions confusing yet unknown... how to answer I do not know... just believe on what you sought to believe... do not be tainted by the beliefs of other see everything with your self ^_____^....

what is reality?... is reality all that you see?... or is reality far beyond what you know?... Is everything you see real?... or is just a product of another reality?... why is there existance why do we exist are we really real?....

Order exist for chaos that wanders... Chaos exist to break down orders... Painting each other in crimson and azure overlapping yet unending overseeing yet unseen mixing yet dissimilar the same yet different... Without chaos there is no order without order there is no chaos... They both exist to support their existance... They both exist to believe in their existance... if you are chaos who is your order?....